Hospital memories

I am still not sleeping very well and still having very vivid, active dreams nearly every night that I can clearly remember. These dreams are weird as I am always in them and usually I am watching my dreams, the dreams are never very nice but I wouldn't call them nightmares as they don't scare me. When I wake up on a morning my eyes are puffy but not as bad as before, and even after 12 hours sleeping I still feel tired, drained, gunked up and generally feel like crap! I dunno maybe I am sleeping too much, although I've been setting my alarm to get up by 8.30-9am and it hasn't helped. The only explanation I can think of is the voriconazole is messing with my head, I've looked at the side effects and don't think I can see anything about sleeping problems. It's so strange because I am usually quite a good sleeper (apart from getting up to go to the toilet like 5 times during the night). My dreams are clearly been influenced by what I do during the day as last night I dreamt about being Henry the 8th's wife and guess what? I had watched the Tudors on Sunday and abit on Monday. Jo by the way, found me the 1st episode of the new series which isn't even supposed to be out yet! So I officially love Jo!!!! In the dream Johnathan Rhys Myers was not Henry the 8th which is abit disappointing, that would have been a nice dream....! No my dreams have to be historically correct and Henry was ginger and fat!

So I couldn't get to sleep last night and was thinking about random stuff like you do, and I was thinking that I think my memory is quite rubbish, like things from my childhood etc. So I decided to think about all my memories from been in hospital (I clearly was not going to sleep!) as this seems to be the biggest gap in my memory which is quite strange. Actually I discovered I can remember quite alot! As you will see, cross infection rules were pretty non existent! (wcf means they had/have cf). Here I go:

-Watching Daniel (wcf) getting his port flushed to see what is was like
-Someone telling me someone had stood on their line and pulled their port needle out and I asked if it hurt (I didn't have a port at the time) and the person was like 'well yeah duh!'
-Getting my first port - drawing an x on my chest where is was going to go and they kept cancelling the operation date (I did finally get it although can't remember this)
- Been in the bath whilst someone (my mother and nurse I think) pulled the dressing off my stitches on my stomach from having my gastrostemy put in and me not enjoying it
- Playing on the mega drive with Nikki (wcf, rip) on Sonic 2 and she always kicked my arse. I had to sit in the door to my room and she in hers with the mega drive in the middle (their attempts at preventing cross infection...)
- Clare (wcf) asking Daniel out for me, he even came to my house to play Lego you know!
- The nurse telling my mum and I that Clare had died during the night and my mum crying and I laughed for some reason and got told off (I dunno why I laughed, I guess I found it weird I had seen her the day before and she seemed OK to me)
- Weird, fat, pervy boy with asthma spying on me through the curtains when I was in a bay room and when I told him I didn't like him anymore he told the nurse I was bullying him and I got told off!!
- Someone chucking calogen across the room (Shelly, wcf maybe?) and getting it all over my simba lion cub!!!
- Thinking I was so cool cos I had TWO drips and my feed drip so I had 3 in total
- A little girl who lived in hospital called Charlotte I think, she lived in the third single room from the nurses desk, she died when she was about 3 and I thought that room would be cursed and never wanted to stay in it.
- The ward had some pet fish that we were allowed to feed and you had to mark a piece of paper when they had been fed so they didn't get overfed
- That stupid treatment room with the bloody train painted on the roof and my mother getting me to count the stupid wheels every time they tried to put a line/needle in me! It did not distract me!
- My port blocking and them putting 2 needles in at the same time to try unblock it (it didn't work). I ran away and hid in the toilets when they suggested putting another needle in!
-I remember when they put your line in, you had to ensure they attached you to the drip by putting the tubing under your top, otherwise when you came to take it off that night they had to detach all the tubing from the drip to get your top free. I have no idea why they didn't just stop the drip for a minute and unscrew it somewhere to get the top free. I don't even know why they insisted attaching you to the drip all the time to have 10mls of saline pumped into you per hour! I know it was 10 mls cos I learnt to do it myself when it beeped.
- Been in a bay room and the baby next to me crying constantly and I couldn't sleep. So I rang my parents during the night off the pay phone in tears and my dad drove over and sat with me until I fell asleep. Bless!
- The earliest memory I have of hospitals is before I even went to St James and I was at Pinderfields hospital and I was playing in a sandpit, I don't know if I have even made this memory up! Sand pit, in a hospital..??!!

So as I discovered I can remember quite abit, but they are only snippets of things. It helped me get to sleep anyway!