End of IVs

This two week course of IVs has been one of the most nicest (if that's possible) courses of IVs I've had in a long time. I have had few side effects and I actually feel like the IVs have worked for a change! I even went clothes shopping on Monday which I never do as it tires me out and makes me feel light headed, I got a new pair of jeans with my birthday gift voucher, a top (a Primark special for £4 haha!) and some birthday presents for my friends. I had to get size 8 jeans which was slightly strange as I don't think I have ever fitted into size 8 jeans, but the 10's were far too big and jeans always go baggy, all my size 10's I have are like that now and I'd like a pair that are actually tight on me, even my skinny jeans fresh from being washed hang off me at the moment.

The first week of my IVs I felt very tired and had afternoon naps, I also had a fair few headaches but this improved in the second week. I will definitely be asking for IV Aztreonam again as it's much more friendly than Ceftaz or Mero!

Today I ended my IVs and when it came to taking my needle out my needle was in my arm in a very awkward position, not how it entered my arm last week! I recall trying to reach something in my car the other day which involved twisting my arm around, never the best idea when there is a needle in the top of your arm. There was a popping sound and shot of pain through my port but it flushed fine so I didn't do anything about it, anyway this must have been when the needle repositioned. My arm looks in good condition, there are no sores, just flaky skin and it's slightly red, a massive improvement to how it used to react, so I think we have my allergies etc figured out now!

My weight is up to 54.1 kg which is good news and then I did my lung function test. The physio looked at the numbers and a big grin came on his face, he told me it was good and asked me what I thought it was. I guessed 46%, then he told me it was 50%!!!!!! I can't believe it, I nearly cried on the way home because I was so happy. I'm so relieved as I have being worried about my health over the past few months and doubts have crept in to my head about where it was going. I've wondered if Pete and I are doing the right thing trying to have a family when I have struggled especially with my weight as my weight is always stable so to lose this safety net was a big worry for me. I didn't discuss these feelings with anyone apart from Pete as I know people already have doubts about our plans, I feel like every time I have a rough patch people are judging how we will cope and I even judge myself and wonder if I am selfish.

Before and over Christmas when I was struggling to even bathe on my own or walk to the bathroom I decided to myself that if I didn't improve we would have to cancel our surrogacy plans, I really thought this could be the start of a totally different direction to the future I had planned. When you come out of the other side it's easy to think you were being dramatic and it was just a rough patch, but when it's actually happening you have no idea what the future holds. I'm not saying I thought I was dying, but I thought I might not regain my lung function and the damage could be permanent. So I am so happy that things are back on track and to get an fev1 of 50% is just amazing and illustrates how stable my health is overall.

Pete and I have booked a holiday to Italy! I am so excited! We are going to Sorrento for 10 days and I can't wait! It was quite difficult finding a suitable hotel within our price range as we needed something central as if I have to walk to and from the hotel it will just tire me and ruin the holiday especially since the area is very hilly and also I needed a room with a fridge for my medications. However we found somewhere eventually, I now need to have a flight test done and sort out some travel insurance. We are booked with Thompsons and they provide free oxygen on flights so if I do need oxygen it's not as big a problem and I have been quoted around £130 for insurance for Pete and I with a £350 excess. I was expecting it to be a lot higher due to my hospital stay so quite relieved I can still get covered for a reasonable'ish' price. I got this quote from Jd Travel , I've used them for years. However a few people with CF have recommended Insurance With so I'm going to give them a try as well.