Ace Husband

It's nearly the end of IV time and the past 12 days have not been the best, but neither have they been the worse. I was put on Aztreonam and Colomycin and my eyes have not gone sore at all, so it must be Tobramycin that is the culprit. However I have had terrible headaches, soreness in my joints and muscles and general lack of energy. However me being me decided that IVs were not going to ruin our plans to go to the Lake District last weekend so we loaded everything in the car and I was quite relieved I have an Astra as there was lots of stuff to take, and off we went. We did a short walk one day and that's about it, however I still came home feeling like a sack of crap which has continued all of this week. I'm still glad we went though as it was nice to get away, I love it in the Lakes, I love the views, fresh air and feeling of smallness.

I always convince myself that life is going to be normal when I'm on my IVs and this never happens. The reason for this is I forget all the little things that IVs do to you and how difficult and stressful it makes your day. One minute I can sleep for England, the next minute I can't sleep at all, things smell funny, I smell funny and as a result feel dirty, having thrush drives me insane, my skins itches, all my clothes feel tight and scratchy, getting washed is like a military operation due to a stupid needle in my arm, washing my hair is even worse, my dressing itches, my hands go dry from cleaning them so much and you guessed it...they itch, I have to plan everything to try fit my IVs in, I feel like I'm on another planet half of the time, my mouth feels like I'm hungover for the whole 2 weeks, I get daily headaches, my joints ache, I'm not hungry at all and feel sick...no wait now I want to eat a million chocolate bars, my sputum goes all thick from dehydration, it hurts to reach for the gear stick in the car because of my needle and lucky old me because I have hardly any energy to cope with any of these things.

Luckily I have an amazing husband because no-one else seems too bothered that I'm on IVs, people get so used to me been on them. Oh you're on your IVs again? Yep that's me, on my IVs again. Maybe people know I have Pete to help me so just keep out of it, I don't really know what I expect. Pete has got up every morning at 6am to prepare my IVs and put them on for me, some mornings I barely remember him doing them! He has also done my evening IVs and when we were in the lakes he did them all. He has helped me with my physio, has cooked tea most nights and taken Alfie out after work a few times. This is what being a CF partner or a partner of anyone with a disability involves and I really don't think they get enough credit, Pete doesn't have to put up with this like I do, he chooses to put up with it. My brother pointed out when we were in the Lakes that Pete does lots for me and yes he does. Pete lives with me and knows what makes me tired, what I can't manage, he understands my limits. On the hand hand he also knows what I am capable of, he knows that I'm not lazy (well maybe sometimes hehe) and I hate it when I useless. He doesn't rub it in my face or expect anything in return and it's taken him a long time to learn all these things, I sometimes worry one day he will have enough and leave me. I hate people that don't appreciate what they have and I know I am very lucky to have such a wonderful person in my life. He describes himself as 'a planner by day and carer by night!' I'm not sure if I like him labelling himself as my carer as I'm more to him than a patient! I know he isn't too serious though, I think he's a planner by day and an ace husband by night!

Pete is doing the great North Run today, sadly because I'm on my IVs it wasn't possible for me to go with him to cheer him on which is disappointing but he understands. I'll let you know how he does!

Here are some pictures from the Lakes