December - bittersweet month

I had outpatients on Friday and my lung function has fallen to 32% from 42% a month ago and my weight has fallen to about 55kg so not much but it still concerned the Doctor. So guess what? I have to go on IVs! I am actually past caring, I feel so ill I wouldn't have cared if they said I had to go in to hospital. This is the lowest my lung function has been for 2 years, to the date can you believe it! It was 31% the 2nd December 2009, I get the feeling December is not a good month for me!

I get breathless doing everything, I cough doing everything even during the night, my chest aches, my body aches, I am sweating buckets every night and sometimes sweaty during the day, my appetite is poor, I have little energy and just getting dressed is tiring me out. Its gotten worse over 2 weeks and I've had enough! I realised yesterday I haven't even considered when we are going to put the Christmas tree up, I always get excited about that and put it in my diary! I'm currently listening to Christmas songs to try get me in the mood, I get this from my mother, one memory I will always have of Christmas is my mum having the Christmas tunes on loudly whilst wrapping presents at the table and writing cards. I think I am one of the few people who loves Christmas songs!

So I am starting IVs tomorrow, I'm not having Ceftzadime, I'm having Aztreonam this time so have to have my second dose at the hospital as well to make sure I'm not allergic to it since I haven't had it in a long time. The nurse annoyed me a little as she said I could have my first dose then go Christmas shopping and then come back for my second dose, does she really think someone ill enough to need IVs would be able to do 6 hours worth of shopping?! I think I'll go home thanks....

Anyway I am excited about starting to feel better again and I will finish my IVs the Tuesday before Christmas, it could be worse, I could be on my IVs on Christmas. I remember once when I was a child I was in hospital over Christmas but I got to come home on Christmas Eve and go back in on Boxing Day, I don't ever plan for a repeat performance!