Still Here!

Boo! Don't worry I am still alive!

I ended up going on my IVs and I am on day 7 today. I am on Mero and Tob and the nurse came to see me today to do the usual shenanigans , weight is 54.2kg so working its way up, sats were 92%, yikes! They always seem to be in the low 90's these days, no explanation has been provided. My fev1 when I started IVs was 43% so not really low but the doctor felt that if I felt I was not feeling my best and slipping I should start some IVs pronto rather than wait and need them in a few weeks anyway.

These IVs suck big time, I am sick of getting pissing headaches and I'm sick of all around my eyes being red raw. I'm sick of having bowl problems and I'm sick of wanting to just sit around and do nothing because IVs claw at my soul and make me in to a self pitying fool with no energy. The doctor told me to take is easy and rest so that's what I am trying to which involves watching stuff I have recorded on our new sky+ box (yeay we have sky!) and watching lots of naked, fit men in Spartacus... This programme makes me think I should be going to the gym and I have been once this week, better than the last three weeks when I went zero times! I will get a toned belly, I will get a toned belly...! :o) I can't complain, the daily debate in my head seems to be 'who is the fittest? New Spartacus, old Spartacus, Crixus or Gannicus?', I still can't decide!

Other debates in my head are 'should I go the gym?', 'should I get out of bed?' 'will it ever stop raining so I can walk Alfie?', 'should I make myself eat something?'. Other thoughts in my head 'sh!t I forgot to get my IVs out of the fridge!', 'go away headache I hate you!', 'why is so much of my hair falling out?', 'has anyone played on Draw Something on Petes phone?'.

I'm going to tell you something and you won't believe me but it's true! The prescription clerk at my GP's agreed to write me a prescription to be ready for Tuesday when I only asked for it on the Monday. She broke the rules and did not make me wait three days for a prescription! I told her I had run out (which was true) and needed the medication and she sorted it for me, it's seriously a medical marvel!

Pete went to Scotland sailing last week and I was all alone. I actually enjoyed it the first few days, I have always been abit of a loner, enjoying my own company. I could eat when I wanted, watch what I wanted, spend all day talking to Alfie and I didn't have to wear earplugs in bed with the snorer away from home. No wait... one of the snorers was away from home, Alfie was still here, although he can be put in his basket when I fancy it. I went to my mums for tea twice and had a friend stay over one evening after we had a Spartacus night, yes I have introduced her to Spartacus and now she is in love too. Towards the end of the week I did start to get lonely and miss my hubby even though we spoke everyday, also very tired since I needed IVs and had to do a lot of things myself which Pete usually does. I managed to put the wheely bin out but getting it back up the drive was a big no, so had to leave that for Pete on his return. I had a few ready meals, had to empty the dishwasher myself and had to get the ironing board out and put it away which I hate. Glad my darling husband is home now though as I did miss him lots! He hurt his thumb by getting it stuck in a rope when the boat was moving, not the best thing he's ever done! It's all bruised and sore but luckily not broken. He is temporarily suspended from doing my IVs as he was caught yesterday wiping his nose on his hand then carrying on preparing them, when questioned he told me 'it will be alright'! This is not alright since its all supposed to be sterile, so although I appreciate him doing them for me, I won't appreciate it if I get an infected port, so I think I need to keep an eye on him next time!